Glowing - February/March 2007

I want to dance, I want to sing,
I want to whirl, I want to spin,
I want to stir up everything,
I want to leap out of my skin!

I'm glowing with elation
and intense anticipation,
as the friends I have adore me
and the whole world lies before me.



I was always idealistic,
with a somewhat optimistic
faith in people's better nature
and the thoughts behind their deeds.

But a certain realism
laced these thoughts with cynicism,
so they failed to meet my standards
and planted bitter seeds.

Still I held this shining theory,
though its absence made me weary
and I felt the disappointment
of my unenacted dreams;

I just persevered inflated
with my fervour unabated,
and undertook myself
to implement my own regimes.



I want to dance, I want to sing,
I want to whirl, I want to spin,
I want to stir up everything,
I want to leap out of my skin!

I'm glowing with elation
and intense anticipation,
as the friends I have adore me
and the whole world lies before me.



A silver lining glimmered
through the haziness, it shimmered
like a light without a tunnel,
like the current pasture green.

Was it tentative or vivacious,
was it tenuous or tenacious,
this hope of something precious
that only I had seen?

I thought I saw it clearly;
I believed in it sincerely,
so I gave my heart and soul
in order that its fate be sealed,

But a tunnel formed about me
and the pasture grew without me,
and at last the cloud sank low
so that its darkness was revealed.



It happened very slowly,
but I hung my head more lowly
and shrank within my soul
as I began my cold retreat.

I'd lost the polished sheen
of inner light, the spark unseen
that gives a voice to bursting song
and the fire to passion's heat.

Yet somehow there remained
a part of me that was unchanged,
uncompromised by tarnishes
of disrespect and spite.

Beneath the sooty smears
around the essence of my years
still glowed the everlasting embers
of my endless will to fight.



I want to dance, I want to sing,
I want to whirl, I want to spin,
I want to stir up everything,
I want to leap out of my skin!

I'm glowing with elation
and intense anticipation,
as the friends I have adore me
and the whole world lies before me.



Long it was before awareness
dawned on me of this unfairness,
when at last the dream was shattered
and lucidity ensued.

Thus it was that I emerged
intact from where my thoughts converged
in murky depths of troubled sleep
with vital strength renewed.

I regained the vigour of youth
from the hitherto hidden truth
that seemed to have dispersed
along with all that I held dear.

I woke from hibernation
with the poignant realisation
that all that might have been yet might be;
the way forward was clear.



I want to dance, I want to sing,
I want to whirl, I want to spin,
I want to stir up everything,
I want to leap out of my skin!

I'm glowing with elation
and intense anticipation,
as the friends I have adore me
and the whole world lies before me.